Ch. 16 Ep. 2: An Absent Mind
The other club members tell you to rely more on them and you finally realize that you have lost sight of what's around you. Ayumu is not in the clubroom on this day, but it is then that you resolve to tell her how you feel.
Ayumu
*Sigh* I skipped school. Am I causing trouble for everyone? I'm too scared to check my phone!
Ayumu
Wh-Who is it?!
Shioriko
It's me, Mifune.
Ayumu
Sh-Shioriko?! Wh-Why have you come all the way to my house?!
Shioriko
May I come in?
Ayumu
Oh, um, sure.
Shioriko
Thank you.
Ayumu
So, uh… What made you drop by all of a sudden?
Shioriko
I have come to pay you a visit as I hear you were absent from school.
Ayumu
So that's why you came all this way?
Shioriko
How are you feeling? Is it okay for you to be up and about like this?
Ayumu
Ack, sorry for making you worry about me. Um, I actually skipped school today. I just didn't feel like going.
Shioriko
I see. As long as you're okay, then that's fine.
Ayumu
Y-You're not gonna get mad at me? What I'm doing is definitely something that I deserve to be lectured about.
Shioriko
Do you want to be lectured?
Ayumu
Well, no…
Shioriko
Then I won't. I am sure there are days when you just don't feel like going to school. I don't quite understand that myself, however.
Ayumu
I don't feel like going to school, and I've skipped practice without telling anyone. I really am pathetic.
Ayumu
Hey, Shioriko? I really don't know what to do right now.
Ayumu
Um, do you mind if I ask you something? What do you think I'm best suited to–
Shioriko
Uehara.
Ayumu
Yeah?
Shioriko
Might I suggest we step outside for a change of pace? You will feel even more depressed if you stay cooped up in your room.
[Fade in/out.]
Ayumu
It's been a while since I last came here as well. I used to come to hang out, even if I didn't have anything to buy. I haven't been doing that lately, though…
Ayumu
Because I've been busy with school idol stuff every day…
Ayumu
Oh, I know. Maybe I'll get back into some knitting. Can we go look at this store?
Shioriko
Sure.
[Fade in/out.]
Ayumu
Oh my gosh, I bought so much! I pretty much used up all my allowance.
Shioriko
*Chuckle* Seeing that shopping spree of yours was quite exhilarating.
Ayumu
*Giggle* There was just so much I wanted to buy since I haven't been here in a while.
Shioriko
Not only do you knit, but you also cook and make accessories. You have quite the array of hobbies.
Ayumu
Yeah, I think you're right about that. I've been completely consumed by my school idol activities lately, but it looks like I had a lot of hobbies to begin with.
Ayumu
I gotta get back all of the time I couldn't spend on my hobbies. There's so much to do starting tomorrow. Looks like I'm not gonna be bored for a while, ahaha.
Shioriko
Are you really okay with that?
Ayumu
Am I okay with what?
Shioriko
Not being a school idol. Are you going to quit?
Ayumu
…Yeah.
Ayumu
I think I've had enough. I mean, it's not like I actually liked school idols to begin with, and it's not something I wanted to do either.
Ayumu
I'm sure this is the right choice. All I'm doing is going back to who I originally was.
Shioriko
I see. To me, you appeared to be having a lot of fun as a school idol.
Ayumu
Did I?
Shioriko
On the day before the school tour, you kept practicing even when I told you to stop, didn't you?
Ayumu
O-Oh, well… That was…
Ayumu
I know! Because I was representing everyone! I just felt like I had to carry those feelings with me!
Shioriko
Yes, you do care a great deal for the club.
Shioriko
I personally have mixed feelings towards school idols. However, even I understand how irreplaceable that environment is after temporarily joining the club myself.
Shioriko
Everyone in the club seemed to have a sparkle to them. Including you.
Ayumu
What?
Shioriko
You shined brightly when you were practicing and performing.
Ayumu
A-Ahaha… Thanks, Shioriko.
Ayumu
But, you know what? I've had enough. I don't have any reason to be a school idol anymore.
Shioriko
Is that so?
Shioriko
May I ask you something? Do you regret becoming a school idol?
Ayumu
No. I was really happy and had a lot of fun knowing that there were people cheering even someone like me on.
Ayumu
But now… Um, I couldn't care less anymore.
Shioriko
If you're all right with that, then so be it. I will not say otherwise. However, if there is something you perhaps need me to do…
Ayumu
Thanks, Shioriko. Maybe I'll drag you along to go shopping with me again. *Chuckle*
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