Ch. 13 Ep. 9: Not Every Step
Shioriko cannot understand how the members happily support Ayumu despite wishing to stand on stage themselves. She comes across Ayumu practicing alone and calls out to her.
Ayumu
One, two, three, four. One, two, three, four…
Ayumu
*Sigh* My movements are too slow in the second half. I need to work on my stamina.
Ayumu
Okay, one more time! I can do this!
Shioriko
Ayumu.
Ayumu
Whoa! Sh-Shioriko, you scared me.
Shioriko
You're still here?
Ayumu
Yes, the live show's coming up, after all.
Shioriko
I am well aware, but you do not want to worsen your condition by overworking yourself.
Shioriko
I observed you for a bit before I said anything. Your footwork was much sloppier than usual. That was not dancing. You were simply moving your feet.
Shioriko
If you keep practicing like that, you will only develop strange habits. It is pointless to continue.
Ayumu
Shioriko, you do know a lot about school idols, don't you?
Shioriko
The same as anyone else.
Ayumu
Really? Um, I always tell myself I have to work extra hard for the other members, but then that makes it hard for me to know when to stop practicing.
Shioriko
For the other members? Ayumu, do you feel guilty that you will be performing instead of them?
Ayumu
Huh? Well, yes, a little.
Shioriko
Then why couldn't you keep your feelings of wanting to do it to yourself?
Ayumu
I don't know. I thought I'd do the best job of showing all those students, young and ready to take on the world, how fun it is to do something for the first time.
Shioriko
Is that why you thought you should be the one on stage?
Ayumu
You know, I won't be standing up on stage alone, Shioriko.
Ayumu
The other club members have been supporting me and cheering me on so that the live show will be a huge hit.
Ayumu
They'll all be on stage with me, too. I'll be alone but not really alone. That's what it feels like to me.
Shioriko
Alone but not really alone?
Ayumu
That's right. And I feel like you'll be there, too.
Shioriko
Me? Why?
Ayumu
Because you came to talk to me today.
Shioriko
Well, that's because… I know you have a tendency to work too hard. As the student council president, I thought I should make sure you were okay.
Ayumu
*Giggle* That's fine. Maybe I'm just reading too much into things.
Ayumu
What about you, Shioriko? Did you realize anything after joining our school idol practices?
Shioriko
I… Just as before, I still believe being a school idol is a waste of time. However…
Ayumu
However?
Shioriko
I think I have a better understanding of why you were all so desperate to save your club.
Shioriko
I also understand why the other clubs want to do things that I find useless. Just a little, though.
Ayumu
I see. I'm glad you had some fun during our practices.
Shioriko
I wouldn't go that far. And I still do think it is a waste of time.
Shioriko
I still believe that your time could be better spent on something more valuable.
Shioriko
However, I may have been wrong to dismiss every part of your activities as worthless. That is all.
Ayumu
You're so nice, Shioriko.
Shioriko
Um, how in the world did you come to that conclusion?
Ayumu
It just came to me while we were talking.
Shioriko
I am not nice. I just do not want people to make the wrong choices.
Ayumu
*Giggle*
Shioriko
Why are you laughing?
Ayumu
Oh, it's nothing. There's just something reassuring about having you here.
Shioriko
Reassuring? Why is that?
Ayumu
Because you've been watching over us.
Ayumu
When we're unsure about what path we should take, you give us advice. When we get lost, you help us find our way again.
Ayumu
When we head down the wrong path, you call us back on track. Knowing all that just feels really reassuring.
Ayumu
I bet everyone else feels the same way, too.
Shioriko
I don't know. I think everyone else sees me as a nuisance.
Ayumu
Maybe sometimes, but I don't think that's the only thing that people think. Everyone can see how earnest you are.
Ayumu
I do think you could have a little more faith in everyone, though.
Shioriko
Have more faith?
Ayumu
Yes. You said this earlier…
Ayumu
Something may seem like a waste of time, but that doesn't mean everything about it is useless. I think a lot of things in life are like that.
Ayumu
So I think you can step back and watch over people from a distance a bit more.
Shioriko
I will think about it.
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