Umi Ep. 19: What Counts as a Worldly Desire
Umi has undergone spiritual training in an attempt to rid herself of the worldly desires within. After being asked about what it means to get rid of worldly desires, she begins to second-guess herself.
Player
Hm? Were you already awake, Umi?
Umi
Yes. I had so much to think about that I couldn't sleep.
Player
I see. Can I sit down next to you?
Umi
Of course.
Umi
I feel that I caused everyone a great deal of trouble today.
Player
No, I don't think that's true. We're the ones who came here to bring you back without asking.
Umi
I underwent spiritual training, and yet…I feel as though I understand even less after listening to what you all had to say.
Player
You went through that training to erase the worldly desires you felt inside you…
Umi
Yes. I wished to sever myself from emotions like worrying over whether I was everyone's favorite or not…
Umi
However, my feelings of wanting to be with the people I hold dear and to grant them courage still remain.
Umi
Are these feelings worldly desires? If they are, then am I obligated to sever myself from them as well?
Umi
I can't tell if I should rid myself of these feelings or not.
Umi
How should I change to better myself? What do you think?
Player
Um…
| Option 1: “I like you just the way you are.” |
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| Player I don't care what kind of emotions you keep within your heart, Umi. I like you just the way you are. Umi Th-Thank you very much. Umi When you put it as bluntly as that, I… I g-get too embarrassed to look you in the eye! |
| Option 2: “You should treasure what makes you unique.” |
| Player I think it's best to treasure what makes you unique, Umi. If you didn't have those feelings of yours, then you wouldn't be Umi anymore. Umi That's a good point. I am afraid of going too far and losing myself. |
Umi
So that's how you feel about it.
Player
I think that wanting to be near the people you care about is part of what makes you so kind, Umi.
Player
Just like Nozomi said, I think that your worldly desires are what make you able to write such beautiful lyrics.
Umi
Thank you very much. I feel much better because of you.
Umi
*Sigh* Now that I feel better, I'm starting to feel a little sleepy.
Player
We should get to bed. Good night, Umi.
[Fade in/out.]
Hanamaru
It was so fun having you all stay over last night and getting to chat so much, zura! Have a safe trip back!
Player
Thanks for having us, Hanamaru!
Umi
Hanamaru… I'm deeply sorry for bothering you.
Hanamaru
No way, it was no bother! If anything, I'm glad that you seem a lot less stressed now!
Umi
I am! Doing spiritual training alone was quite the experience, but…
Umi
What everyone told me struck a deep chord in my heart.
Umi
It seems that I had something important inside me that I mustn't lose at any cost.
Umi
I think… I want to keep that important part of me safe.
Rin
So you finished up all your training! Thank goodness!
Nozomi
It feels a bit like we're all refreshed from this too.
Player
I'm so glad, Umi!
Umi
Nozomi, Rin, and you too. I'm so sorry for worrying you.
Umi
Well, shall we head home?
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