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Ch. 25 Ep. 8: My Ego

Karin is brought to a park by Kanata where she watches Emma perform a live show. She is brought to heart-wrenching tears by Emma's gentle, comforting voice as she sings surrounded by children. Emma then warmly embraces Karin.

Kanata

Phew… That was a good cry.

Karin

It's been a while since I cried so much. I can't believe I did it in front of so many people.

Kanata

I feel so bad about the scene we created in front of everyone who came to listen to Emma sing.

Emma

But everyone applauded for us.

Karin, Kanata

How embarrassing!

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Kanata

Hey, I'm sorry I didn't manage to make things go very smoothly today.

Kanata

I really was going for a more peaceful reconciliation with smiles all around.

Kanata

But I suppose things don't go as planned, huh?

Karin

That was probably because I was feeling depressed after watching Haruka's live show.

Emma

No, it was my fault to begin with.

Karin

I'm the one to blame from the very start.

Emma

No. It was because I was avoiding you.

Emma

And you slept in because I couldn't wake you up in the mornings, and I couldn't clean your room for you.

Karin

Y-You don't have to bring that part up right now!

Karin

For now, please just listen to what I have to say.

Karin

I was so focused on my own performance that I was oblivious to everything around me. It's a little late now, but I realize this.

Karin

You were aware of this, weren't you, Emma? You knew of my self-conceit.

Emma

I think so… I used to really love your performances.

Emma

When you were up on stage, you'd tell us that you wanted us to only have eyes for you and to not look away.

Emma

It was that selfish side of you that tugged at my heartstrings. It compelled me to go along with you.

Karin

Th-That's how I appear to people?

Kanata

Why are you looking at me? I feel the same way as Emma, you know?

Kanata

I figured you were completely consumed by improving on your skills lately.

Kanata

I'd be looking at you, but you'd be gazing way off in the distance…

Kanata

I think it's because what you're aiming for is so high and so far away.

Karin

I see…

Karin

Hey, Emma? What were you thinking about as you sang in your live show just now?

Emma

Me? I had my audience in my thoughts as I sang.

Emma

I looked at everyone's faces and wondered if they were enjoying themselves or if my songs were livening them up.

Emma

If there are any kids who look lonely or sad, I sing with the hope that I can neutralize their negative feelings. I want them to know that I'm there for them.

Karin

I could feel that you cared for me when I listened to you sing. So that's really what you were thinking as you sang, huh.

Karin

I'm sure the same goes for Kasumi.

Karin

You two might be aiming for different goals, but you try to share those feelings with the people who support you. They support you because your songs reflect your emotions.

Karin

And then those cheers you receive are transformed into your own powers when you're on stage.

Emma

My ideal school idol is one who can create live shows together with everyone. I'd be so happy if we could all enjoy ourselves and laugh together.

Emma

That's why I don't mean to offend you, but I just can't accept how the School Idol Association does things.

Karin

Give the best performance and push your charms onto everyone by force. That's the School Idol Association—no, that's Lanzhu's way.

Kanata

Hey, Karin? What kind of school idol are you aiming to be?

Karin

Me? Who cares about me. It's not like I've got any really significant reason.

Kanata

Are you sure? Someone without a significant reason wouldn't cry like you did.

Karin

Don't say that like I was the only person crying!

Emma

I want to learn more about you, Karin. Please open up to me.

Karin

I'm…not like you, Emma. I don't want to be a school idol in order to do anything or say something in particular.

Karin

Remember what you two mentioned earlier? I want people's gazes. I want them to look at me. I won't allow for people to look away.

Karin

That's exactly it. Nothing more.

Karin

I just want to be the best. I want to get the most attention. I want everyone's gazes all to myself. I want it all for me. Now that I've started, I want to be number one.

Karin

I want people to say that I'm more incredible than μ's or Aqours, and that they love me more than Kasumi or anybody else.

Kanata

Then you need to get that message across to your audience through your songs and performances.

Emma

Yeah. You need to directly tell them to look at you and love you more than anyone else.

Karin

There's no way I could do something so embarrassing, and I might bring disappointment instead if I do.

Emma

But that selfish side of you is so cute.

Kanata

If you want to be the best, you need to put in the effort for it. There's nothing more powerful than honest feelings. I'm sure you felt that watching Emma's live show earlier.

Karin

You're right.

Karin

I get it now. I'll give it a shot!


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