Setsuna Ep. 19: Fervent Feelings
Setsuna receives letters from her fans filled with their desires to tell the world about what they love. She sets out to spread the word about everyone's favorite things, yet something seems amiss.
Shioriko
I see. Understood. So that is what I should envision, then. I feel as though I will be able to master these steps now. Thank you very much, Setsuna.
Setsuna
Not at all! Feel free to ask me whenever you have any other questions.
Shioriko
Yes, I will do just that.
Shioriko
Moving onto a completely different topic… Setsuna, do you happen to be tired today?
Setsuna
What?!
Player
That was on my mind as well. You seem a little deflated today, Setsuna. Is something wrong? Have you not completely recovered from the live show the other day?
Setsuna
Oh, that's not it! I've completely recovered from the exhaustion of that! I'm full of energy!
Player
Then is something else making you seem deflated?
Setsuna
Was it really written all over my face? Well, it's not exactly something for me to beat myself up about, but… What did you two think of my last live show?
Player
Sorry, I was working behind the scenes last time, so…
Setsuna
Oh, of course! Sorry.
Player
No, don't be. I'm sorry I wasn't able to watch you properly. Everyone in the audience did seem really excited when I had a peek, though.
Player
And there were also lots of rave reviews online as well, so I'd say your live show was a huge success.
Setsuna
It was, wasn't it? I managed to project everyone's love outward, right? I do think I pulled it off. I really do, but…
Player
Is something bugging you?
Setsuna
Yeah. I feel like I did live up to everyone's expectations, but there's just something on my mind…
Option 1: “Do you feel something was lacking?” |
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Player Do you feel something was lacking? Setsuna Lacking? Maybe. |
Option 2: “Did it feel different than usual?” |
Player Did it feel different than usual? Setsuna Yeah, I can't quite explain it properly, but it's almost as if I wasn't able to feel as passionate as usual. |
Setsuna
I felt like I needed to get more fired up, but I just couldn't manage to do it.
Setsuna
It just shouldn't have been an issue for me… So that's what's been getting me down since.
Shioriko
So the reason for your lack of energy lies within your last live show, then.
Shioriko
You didn't quite understand it yourself, I see. That's only to be expected, because you were not going about things in your usual fashion.
Setsuna
Hm? Not my usual fashion? What do you mean by that? I was performing like I usually—
Shioriko
You weren't, though. You attempted to represent everyone's “love” on their behalf. You've simply gotten close to their feelings, but it's not that easy to truly share them.
Setsuna
That's not true! If I work harder to internalize and understand everyone's feelings of love, then I should be able to project those feelings!
Shioriko
Internalize and understand, you say? Don't you believe that to be quite a self-righteous way of thinking?
Setsuna
What?
Shioriko
I mean, this is merely my personal opinion. I'm not trying to force anything upon you, because I believe it would be wonderful if you could successfully do what you're saying.
Shioriko
I just simply love your live shows as they are. Ah, perhaps now I am forcing my thoughts upon you. Please forget what I've said. I must return to my student council work now.
Setsuna
But all I want to do is spread everyone's love.
Setsuna
Is Shioriko's opinion correct? Is my way of thinking self-righteous?
Setsuna
I thought I could make the world a more wonderful place if I learned about everyone's love and shared it around.
Player
And I agree. That's why I supported the direction you were going with your new song.
Setsuna
Shioriko said I wasn't doing things in my usual fashion. What exactly is my usual way? What do you think?
Player
The usual you? Hmm… Well, that's gotta be how you express your love with your whole body. How you express what you love and… Oh!
Setsuna
Is something up?
Player
Hey, Setsuna? Did you pour your own feelings, the ones that come from the bottom of your heart, into the new song?
Setsuna
Huh?
Player
I was just thinking that maybe you couldn't sing it to the best of your ability because you weren't singing from your heart about something you loved.
Setsuna
Well…that's just because I wasn't trying hard enough. I'll try harder next time and make more of an effort to understand how everyone feels!
Player
You read every single word of everyone's letters, right? Your eyes sparkled over what everyone loved, over the books and anime they recommended to you.
Player
But was there anything that actually swept your heart away?
Setsuna
All of the recommendations were amazing, and I completely understood people's obsessions with them. But whether or not I was actually captivated myself, well…
Player
While you may be able to internalize others' feelings, that doesn't necessarily mean you can completely have those exact feelings yourself.
Setsuna
So that's what Shioriko was trying to tell me… It's true, I couldn't quite share the exact same feelings as everyone, yet I sang in that state anyway.
Setsuna
So that must've been the reason for that performance not sitting right with me.
Player
It sounds like it.
Setsuna
…
Setsuna
Shioriko made me realize that I shouldn't be singing about what others love, but I should be filling up my songs with my own love.
Setsuna
I feel like I've had some kind of epiphany. There's a crucial key involved in making me burn with passion!
Setsuna
That key is what I truly love myself. So next time I'll sing about what fills me with love!
Setsuna
I want to know what others love, but the most important thing to my music is for me to passionately express what I love the most!
Player
And if you keep doing that, I'm sure that everyone will be able to spread the word about what they love in the same way as you. That's the kind of world I think you'll create!
Player
I really love it when you become oblivious to the world around you because you're so passionate about telling people about the things you love!
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